Nothing like a day at the Swiss Public Swimming Pool to bring on a wave of self loathing for the shape I have let my body slip into. To borrow the Yo-Yo description I have made progress with fitness over the years and then slipped back into survival mode (which does not include exercise or eating right). At one point I was feeling pretty confident about my strength, energy, and even my shape was coming along. I could find clothes I liked almost any place I shop, and I was happy to dress up. Today however I was not feeling so powerful while trying to “swim” my non-swimming 4 year old around the pool, and I could not help but compare my broken veins, jiggly thighs, belly rolls and droopy chest to all the more beautiful bikini bodies that surrounded me.
I think it is fair to generalize the Swiss people as small. They are usually small in stature compared to some of there European neighbors like the Germans or the Scandinavians. They are also rarely overweight from my personal observation. It is an admirable quality I keep hoping will rub off. They are active, always biking and walking everywhere. They also eat very little meat and the sweets are actually not that rich or sugary. I suppose those are just peripheral observations but I’m sure that they are relevant to a healthy, skinny, toned, and beautiful body.
After noticing all the great bikini ab’s I started noticing so many beautiful pregnant ladies. It brought back memories of my own summer pregnancies. Funny thing is that even though I hated being pregnant because of the constant nauseousness, It was the only time that I didn’t feel fat compared to other pregnant bodies. I will pause here to admit that we should not be comparing ourselves, but lets face it- it happens! I remember after loosing about 20 lbs. during pregnancy and gaining all baby in my belly that my stomach was smooth and round, no fat rolls. I felt like I looked normal in a way. It is the ONLY thing I miss about pregnancy but I think it’s a little sad for me that I was feeling so crummy, and wishing the pregnancy would be finished, that I didn’t really enjoy that body confidence the way I should have.
Fast forward to today. I quickly gained back all my pregnancy losses after the babies came and my appetite returned. I worked off a lot of it at the gym after number 1 and then again (almost) after number 2. But with the moving this last year and a half I have completely fallen off any strict eating and fitness routines. My body really misses it. I am feeling rounder and lumpier and more tired than ever. I just want to note that I never feel like working out gives me more energy, (so please pass along secrets to that formula) but at least I feel stronger! So whilst on vacation in France I started my couch potato 5-k routine again. It is slow progress but at least I am doing something. Even more reluctant to make changes is my diet! I am certain that the bread here is holding me back. After all we are doing a lot right. We eat a balanced diet. We are eating less meat and much more fruit than back home. I know however that the delicious fresh breads are going straight to the belly rolls and I worry with all I read about gluten free diet advantages that it might just benefit me too? Are the results that every one raves about based on them having allergies or sensitivities? Or can anyone who gives up wheat suddenly expect clear skin, more energy, and overall better health? Because I LOVE me some Gluten! I love me some pasta and some bread and some big southern style chocolate cake ~ as if it were the only food group I really don’t want to ever -ever give up!
And then there is the ultimate – Plastic Surgery. I hope by just mentioning it I will get some comments on this post. Please Please share your experiences and advice if you know anything about it?! You can always comment anonymously. I am not suggesting that overweight people can slap down a wad of cash and expect to leave an out patient surgery with a “Swiss bikini body” but I wonder what weight loss goals I would have to meet to actually get my belly looking decent? With the added help of plastic surgery too… lipo, tummy tucks, boob reductions or lifts or what ever needs to happen to them… they are all worth consideration.
O this post is just a lot of rambling about whats on my mind, but since I know all of you (are there seriously people that exist with out some sort of body image issues?) must think about it too, I want to hear some advice or some of your thoughts!
**** on a side note, I did eat a lot of gelato this month-LOL